Saturday, August 19, 2006

A Vagabond Comes Home...

Every time I decide to let the blogging habit die in me old friends, family or casual acquaintances show concern that leaves me a little perplexed! I have fed everyone with so much juicy details of my life that its become hard for them to detach from me and even harder for me to forsake one more reason to keep blogging. So I guess its fare enough to blog down both the good and the bad bad days.

A Summer of Discontent, And...
When I reached home, I peaked into my spotlessly clean bathroom, the first thought that struck me was what a fine place it would make to sleep unlike my 8ft by 6ft dinghy that served as my room in Delhi made worse by 8 hour blackouts that killed the zest for sleep and aggravated by rains that raised the humidity rather than dipping the mercury. Playing hop-skip-jump on cow-dung littered streets and developing batman like skills to traverse those same streets at night, flea infested bylanes, an array of colds, throat infections and dysentry's that kept dogging me and my friends. It helped though...the dissatisfaction with my surroundings fuelled the interest to venture out to the world around. Delhi's ancient wonders, Agra, Yamunotri, Rishikesh, Haridwar, Dehradun, Mussorie, Haryana, Nainital and Mukteshwar...some of the many places I have dreamt of visiting ever since I was a kid...lay conquered at my feet. The trek to Yamunotri was an adventure to paradise...a picture post is on the way!

A Sabbattical at 25
Exactly 12 hours since I am at home. The sights on the train right from the Konkan Coast upto Veli Lake have been so beautiful...no colour in the world makes me so happy as green, The weather in tvm is so pleasant, so balmy...i just love this place. Well, Almost!!! What are your plans...enthaanu ninte future plans...i keep getting the same question from everyone except my parents who have continued to be so wonderful and supportive though i just dont deserve it. Everyone wants to discuss with me, help me out, talk me into a firm decision...i dont blame them, the jiby most of them knew was never like this...noone realizes I just cant be helped. I wonder if i should go back to coding, i wonder if i should go back to the US, i wonder if i should continue with this mockery of a civil service prep that I've lost interest in, i wonder what to do next and all i have is a curious optimism that i will somehow strike a path...an absolute vacuum stares me...but i am oddly happy...i realize this is the hard path to maturity...its sad, everybody would have loved my story to end up like Swades but its turning out all like Varavelpu and I have only my personal failings to blame.

Some New Beginnings...
25 years on earth...yet this fine dawn when i should have have been cozy in bed i woke up to a new resolution...to win back my health. The few earlybirds must have wondered why a 55kilo crackpot needs to jog but man i feel so good now...i barely could run the 1/2 km to Pattom Junction and struggle back today, but in a month by Sep 15 I will be running all the way to Kawadiar Palace and back. The 6km trek up Yamunotri when we were humbled by several oldies was a wake-up-call as we struggled to catch our breaths and egg our tired bodies on...i realized my body had aged almost 20 years over the last few years of inexercise, poor sleeping habits and irregular diets. The hard part is to win back all the pounds I lost in Delhi...

Books, Movies...and Guilt
I am so in love with reading again. On the two days in train I lapped up The Alchemist and Five Point Someone, both books which had a distant echo of similarities to my personal life. Today I have picked up my uncles novel and am just breezing through it...I need to put up a review on the blog and try to get more of you to read it if it releases in India...problem is i am so proud of his work i wonder if i can be objective...he seems to have kicked up some controversy in the US Church but I think its high time more reforms came up there! Today i wandered around tvm and picked up a jhumpa lahiri and tolstoy from roadside vendors. So many good movies too coming up this Onam. Man i really am having fun...oh shit, the last thing i want to feel is guilt...its odd...peer pressure never bothered me all these years in life but now I think of my friends hard at work and here I am lazing away in the comforts of home. Dang! I am seriously messed up or what.

7 comments:

Praveen said...

Hey Jiby, somehow i get the feeling that you are more down than up. Enjoy your sabbattical and cheer up man, things will work out, i guess everything in life happens for the good.

Amazing post as usual, great flow and i could feel your emotions.

Do post the book review you are mentioning about

silverine said...

I agree with Praveen, you seem more bouyant and at peace :) Great post as always, you must take up writing seriously!

b v n said...

I miss trivandrum a lot, miss any plan in life too :)...atleast you have tvm for some time now.enjoy maadi....and yeah the onam week celebs will also be starting soon...that would be fun and oh all those new releases...hmmm
its great that you are not cribbing,thats a man !!(cud mk it loyolite too)

Anonymous said...

N joy !

Njoy Onam , Njoy being with your family , in the place you belong to.

I am quite (100%) sure great future and plan awaits you ..

best of luck

Anand K said...

Hallonskaaram!
Ahh... your bathroom @ home was double the size of the Hellhole you lived in at Dacca Colony. D00d, at least you are getting good food now... my diet is composed of dosai dough, potatoes, potatoes, potatoes, potatoes and onions (for a horro onlee). As Frodo and Gollum says in LOTR, "I have forgotten the taste of strawberries, the taste of bread, the feel of grass under my feet, the sound of the streams.... I even forgot my name" ;)

Anyway d00d, remember what I said about "securing" your position before you work in India or continue preps? I strongly suggest you do that.... might come in handy.

Cheers, say Hi to the boys for me...

Immigrant in Canada said...

There is always elixir of life somewhere.. but you have to start looking!

quills said...

Nice post! And good to see you are having a fab time living it up at home. :) And you know, enjoy while you can. I mean, you only realize how much you miss being back among your loved ones and in familiar territory, when u are far far away.

And how is The Alchemist? Hope you do post your book reviews.